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well, i'm having a lot of fun hanging out at the mill, getting an internet connection, emailing, and listening to music on krnu. i'm so into music since my movie-watching mode left me.

had a pretty great day. it started slow. had a sad night last night, my first tears shed in my apartment. part of the process. this morning read up on astrology and napped until my appointment with pete, my friend and now counselor. we hugged hello. not goodbye, though. now he's my therapist :)

pete was very understanding and moved by a good story :) he was very helpful and affirming. he's a taurus. :) and he totally believes in the zodiac :) he's great. makes me want to be a counselor (again). we used to be in a writing group together. but i left that group. i miss him and don hanway, though. don is a retired episcopal minister. he wrote a book called loveletters to the church about how god does not reject homosexuality. i want to buy his book and pete's book on paradox. i wonder how to get those. will check into that later, when i'm not interested in spending money to spend more time in california. after i get some dates straight tomorrow and check the latest lps job listings, i will try to change my ticket for california. need to see my peops in person there for as long as possible.

things are getting better. yesterday i sucked at yoga. i was like, omg, will i ever be a yogi again? i had no energy. today i went to two classes and did all of my living on foot. it was really good. saw some interesting things. oh good, i just remembered i drove here not walked, so i don't have to worry about walking home in the dark alone.

but we are never alone. i am learning that now that i'm living as a single person. my yoga teacher reminded me of that (terri the capricorn).

anyways, i'm boring myself. been typing for quite awhile. last thing i have to say: i get my grandma annie more today. i get her loving spirit. she waited for the love of her life while he fought in world war II. she liked to use the phrase "waiting for your ship to come in" a lot. she knew what that was about. she waited for her ship to come. it did. my grandpa lived through iwa jima. then he gave her two kids. she wanted four. my mom had two of her own. my grandma's life wasn't easy. at all. but she kept on loving. she always kept on loving. my grandma is an inspiration. she should have taken better care of herself. but wow i loved her. and she loved me. she was wonderful.

to all of you. love to you. if you needed healing energy, i tried to send it to you today. i healed myself some, too. feeling much better today.

you rock. life is good.