chakras

being open is an interesting thing... presently it's keeping me from sleeping, even when clint texted me this nice message to close the windows if the fireworks keep me awake. he is being so, so sweet. so anyway, yoga opens a person's heart up in general. this feels good. it helps me connect. sometimes perhaps too much. i'm wondering about this. certainly i can learn how to function while being very, very open. it's a new mindset. i had a couple boundaries lift today that i was not expecting. a) i realized i am free from my past, that i have done nothing that needs me to ingratiate myself or prove myself as worthy of existence, etc. i am free to love myself. i have done that mostly. but i felt like i really needed to earn others' love. i guess i feel more deserving, like i don't have a bad yoke. but this is a new feeling for me. also, liz was opening up our chakras today with this exercise involving colors. do you know purple is the most recent color human beings have evolved to see? and it's my favorite color (since childhood). liz would perhaps say i am more evolved (my generation is)... i need to learn more from her. i need some more self-understanding. liz was also saying something about jesus and the halo... it being something about the chakras... i love when this stuff all gets twisted together... she makes everything so believable. i love her, and i love everyone in my life. i love you. really, if you are reading this, assume that i do, and we can handle that like mature adults. we can love. joseph campbell, jesus christ, jcs of all kind. we can all love each other. even in lincoln, nebraska. it's a new world.