funny talk

had a funny talk with my dad tonight. i can listen a lot better to what went down between he and my mom in light of my current situation. it's funny to me that he never felt too old to be my father. i guess he moved out of his home with marilyn after seeing my mom for two or three weeks. he went to a hotel room. then he got an apartment next to my mom's so he could have the independence of having his own bed once in awhile, but my mom couldn't sleep without him. people are so funny. i asked my dad if he thinks people should feel bad about breaking up marriages. he said no. he said, sure he felt guilty at first, but people get so tied up with being in love. he said they had a really good time together. life is funny. my dad also said he really likes john mccain because mccain went through the same thing. at 40, he started having affairs until he met cindy, who was like 23. mccain said after being a pow, he wanted to be 25 again. my dad really identified. i guess sometimes we get so stressed out or go without having our needs met for so long, that our one life issue kicks in.

my dad said i've really managed to screw up my life and listed 3 factors: 1) failing out of law school; 2) having a failed marriage 3) present situation. :) but then i said, yeah, but don't you think i have to follow my heart? he said, well, there's something to that, too. :) i said yeah, i mean am i supposed to be someone else? what else am i supposed to do? he needed to go eat dinner. life is funny. if nothing else. it's everything else, too. whatever. my dad says he's given up. finally. i've won :)