commitment/practicality

dear reader,
why are you reading this blog? don't you have any other commitments to attend to? isn't there money to be made? :)

this is what i am confronting. someone in my life thinks this blog is quite a problem/bad idea. i maybe should have had a job this summer. there were practical reasons even why i didn't. but we can't change the past.

an update on my commitment and practicality barometer is that i do appreciate commitment in a very deep way. i love being committed to situations where i can grow and offer support and where i get those things in return. the kind of growth we want is an interesting question. there are multiple dimensions of growth to be had. it depends upon what we identify as what we need. and then there's what we can have, what's available in all the different economies, etc.

the lincoln economy is interesting. maybe i will go back to teaching at southeast community college. maybe i will get a job in lincoln public schools. maybe i will get a job at unl. maybe i will become a counselor. i don't want to be pessimistic, but we are in a tough spot. maybe i should have become a bankruptcy lawyer. big sigh of disdain. heavy thud.

then my other option could be moving to california. i'm tired of thinking about my options. this weekend i want to retreat. going to first friday art stuff tonight. but i have no problem engaging the concrete. i have no problem engaging commitment. i want to do these things with the right people. the right person just might be myself.

ps. reading jonathan livingston seagull. but i know this isn't the 60's. still.