first friday

hmmm... well, i went to first friday with carl last night. i think it was my second time going in my life. we had a good time... we started at the hayden gallery, where carl talked to a couple of women artists who he knew, and i wandered around seeing what caught my eye, reading some back-stories on artists, finding some compelling images/compositions... i really liked this one of the dalai lama. also saw a couple of people i knew there, 28th street neighbor cindy and randolph from open harvest.

then we went on to the loft at the mill gallery, and as soon as we walked in, there was this huge image of my guru's face! :) someone had painted LIZ (yoga LIZ)! it is so cool! i want to show it to anyone who will come see it with me. this was a great new point of the night which started carl and i into more fully responding to the art together. i told him about liz. he appreciated her, and then we looked forward to the rest of the series of huge blow-ups of what seemed to be local people's faces. we talked about what vibes we got from people, carl pointed out their imperfections in a good, artistic way, and we went on to find other paintings and talked about what we find compelling in terms of colors, textures, and subject matter. we had similar taste. i love carl's work, so i'm not surprised. then we actually saw in the flesh LIZ, and the night was followed with several of my yoga people including lps artst coordinator and artist nancy childs and krista (writing/yoga krista), who was with her visions of lincoln book that she edited. i think joel sartore took the pictures.

at the burkholder, i got to talk to my spanish teacher colleague paula in spanish. but carl and i had just had this really weird interaction with a man who i am sure is a capricorn. the guy followed carl and i out of the loft at the mill and asked a bunch of i have clout in the art world invasive, interrogating questions. he told me that as an english person i'm "toast" if i don't get a phd. i told him i teach. he told me i better find something else. thanks. :) he should go hang out with some capricorns. he can tell them how he works for netv and does photography and can judge whether his fellow capricorns are toast.

carl and i bonded over toast guy and needed to keep exploring to get past his energy. we ended up walking by box awesome, which i've heard of but maybe never felt young enough to go into :) this nice guy outside told us that there's art inside, and we wanted a new vibe. i saw allen, who i used to talk to as a student teacher at lincoln east. he's living in sioux city with his dad and not loving it but was glad to be back in lincoln. i was glad to see he's doing well (in a band, has nice friends). his friend is oakley, the guy who coralled carl and i, and carl and i went on to form a fabulous triad with oakley, who gave us a tour of his art, and i asked a lot of questions that weren't invasive, i don't think. oakley told us he's really comfortable with us. he reminded me of dave. and then it turned out, of course, that he is a libra and is in the tone/key of f/g. :)

oakley is really interesting. he's from grand island where his dad works in a factory. his dad told him not to be a suit guy and not to work in a factory but to develop his talents. so oakley, like carl, taught himself to paint. he also plays a bazillion instruments and is in a band and writes... it was fun talking to him about his process and hearing his overlap with carl. carl asked him if he wants to do a show together. carl liked the young people energy in box awesome for his work more than what he gets as an exhibiting artist out of a place like the burkholder. it was great fun talking to carl and oakley. oakley said he could teach me painting techniques in a week. and they told me about their favorite colors, where they get them, how much they cost. it was inspiring in terms of things to think about doing as a newly single person.

then carl and i walked some more and decided we were hungry and went to capelli's, where basically i tired him out on my non-stop topics of my present excitements/anxieties. carl is skeptical. that's okay.

then went on home and checked my messages and called zulaika back. she got a job! but we had to discuss salary negotiation. we're learning about something together. then i expressed how i wish i could check my email but had no access to internet, so she offered to check, and then a very amazing, wonderful experience happened where i had one of the best triadic experiences ever that ended up having me rolling in laughter (inside anyway, like i haven't laughed non-stop like that forever). actually, i really may never have laughed like that ever. :) it was really, really fun and made me really, really happy which is a nice change from anxiety and not knowing and things. yay, what fun.

today/now i'm off to yoga, which i really need (two classes) and then kelly and i are going on a walk, and i might go to omaha for family pictures, if they're taken, and i'm in them... then i don't know what i'm doing tonight. might read or hang out with musicians. tomorrow aaron's having a gathering at his parent's place in eagle, which he's house-sitting.

monday i get the internet! something else big is happening, oh, talking to peter.

tuesday and wednesday i'm doing job stuff. there's a job at prairie hill, the montessorri school where i taught for a summer. but i'll probably end up subbing. i also need to see what classes i'm really going to take. i kind of want to buy some paints. my silly apartment. it looked so drab compared to seeing carl's french parlor/art gallery apartment. i don't need that, but still reminds me that i'm in such a transition place where i might remain for a long while. moving to california seems less possible at the moment. clint is having some real estate guy come look at the house to help us consider selling it, i guess, but i don't know that that's possible for us to do without going into a LOT of debt in the current market. so i will keep paying half the mortgage and for my apartment, which means august is a focus on getting work month (minus going to california for 10 days). i'm thinking maybe eventually i'll move into the house and get a roommate. clint wants to buy himself a smaller house. i don't feel like i need a house, but i also don't feel like i can take on big debt on a lost house, and my dad has offered that he will not help me with that (though he'd help me buy a house in omaha that i don't want). i get the not making a negative investment thing, though. oh. well. that's all out now. off to yoga.