fire escape

dear reader. you do not need to keep up with this blog. it is mostly for my own sanity.

after some good therapizing and acceptance with ann, i went out my kitchen door, down the fire escape, and to the capitol, where i went round and round running and walking, appreciating the rain drops, the grey sky, and so many people to say hi to whether the word came out my mouth or not. it's funny how with our moods and changes our relationship to the world is constantly shifting. in many ways i often find it constantly improving, when i'm listening to the momentum of my feelings. the momentum of feelings is cool.

kind of like a storm. a release. a shower. the day after a hot day, where i lied down in the capitol grass, with my cell phone and zulaika on my ear and the big blue sky above. it was nice to share with zulaika. maybe i wouldn't have done that all by myself. either way, it was good. we can choose the good, the better, and feel no guilt about the momentum of our feelings.