interesting developments

in addition to the gift of the lovely rain, in addition to the pleasant happenstance of being parked behind zulaika's car, i just had a very unexpected experience at yoga. i had dropped off kyla. i was going to yoga because it helps to center me, get my mind off the future... first went to a class with liz. then decided to stay for krista's. krista and i have so much in common, and i always enjoy her. she thanked me for connecting her to my friend barb. krista is a writing coach, and barb and i met in a writing workshop about three years ago. barb invited me to join her writing group, where i worked on my master's thesis (with barb's intense support), and the other writers worked on their projects. just talked to mary kay roth, who works for lps, and was in my writing group while at a stoplight on saturday. she said she heard about my divorce and was very supportive. anyways, so krista was glad that i hooked her up with barb because barb is a fellow therapist, and barb is writing a book about how kids are overprescribed drugs. i guess she has an agent's interest now, which is why she has needed help polishing the book. so the connection between she and krista (also barb's daughter's name) was made at just the right time as krista and her partner/husband are moving in the fall.

so i struggled a bit in yoga to be in the present... i was thinking should i try to go to law school right now? would it matter that i've missed the first week of school? i was thinking all kinds of things... should i keep trying to teach? should i go to law school later? should i talk to alan frank about mediation? should i go to the mediation clinic? ...

then my attention was thankfully called back to the present. krista is always trying to challenge me. because i'm really flexible, she's always thinking of the next place for me to go. we were doing the final poses where we use these roller things on our backs, and i just started doing what i do, and the other three women in the class were saying "she needs to be in a yoga magazine." i thought that was funny and kept doing what i was doing. then after class, krista was talking about moving, her transition, needing a replacement. i was just standing there listening when diane asked me why don't i do it? i said i would love to, but i was a bit shy about it because i know that becoming a yoga teacher, when you have a leader like liz, is a big honor... you don't ask to do it. krista had not heard this conversation between diane and i. she said "i need to put out a prayer to the universe that we find a new yoga teacher to replace me." i was just sort of standing there, and then maggie said "i want her to be our new yoga teacher." krista said "that's a great idea, would you do it, heather?" i said i would love to, that it's been an aspiration of mine, but that i've been kind of waiting for liz to say something because that's what you do. krista said, "well, we're going to say something." so she took me to liz and told liz she thinks i should be her replacement. i was smiling and happy but know that this is a big deal for liz. she said she'll think about it, and i think she looked a bit taken aback, put on the spot. i have total respect for liz... i have only been doing yoga for 2 years... there may be other people interested... krista said she would train me... so we'll see... anyways, it was just a very affirming thing that three people would say they would like me to do this. especially interesting to me because if i had moved to san francisco this month, my plan was to do a yoga training there and try to become a yoga teacher. krista also said today, "you know, in a place like portland (she brought this up), it's almost impossible to get a start as a yoga teacher because there are so many people there... but in lincoln, it's easy, you just sort of plop yourself in..." she also said "you're just sort of a natural teacher, aren't you? that's the feeling i get about you." and said, well, i am a teacher. this didn't seem like an environment to sort of toot my own horn. but i would love to do it and have dreamed of doing it. so it's interesting that all of that came up today when usually i do not stand around after class while others are talking... but it seems like it would be really good for me. and it's really affirming to know that people want me to teach them something. also kind of makes me want to go back to scc where i also got that affirmation that people wanted me to teach them something.

always, i could go to law school, become a mediator. still, i could apply for a phd. subbing is there. i think scc is still possible in the future. but it's so cool when things that i want are suddenly offered by others just because i've been doing what i want, following my intuition, and then such ideas arise...