DEAR BLOG

I HAVE MISSED YOU BLOG. SOMETHING HAS HAPPENED WHERE I NO LONGER CAN MAKE THIS TEXT ANY BIGGER NOR CAN I COLOR IT NOR CAN I COLOR THE BACKGROUND. I ACCEPT MY LIMITATIONS IN THIS MATTER.

WHAT I WAS INSPIRED TO GET ON THIS SITE AND SAY AS I EAT SALTY POPCORN WHICH IS STREWN OVER MY FAIRLY CLEAN DESK IS THIS:

THE GREAT THING ABOUT LIFE IS THAT IT IS OURS TO MESS UP AS COMPLETELY AS WE CAN WITH WHATEVER WE THINK WILL ENRICH US. SOME PEOPLE END UP IN TREATMENT CENTERS AFTER FOLLOWING THE BLISS OF ALCOHOL. SOME PEOPLE END UP WITH BROKEN HEARTS. SOME PEOPLE END UP HAPPY. I KNOW. I'VE MET THEM. I THINK YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW YOUR HEART/YOUR BLISS. HOW CAN THERE BE ANY OTHER WAY TO LIVE LIFE? IN DOING SO, IT MAY SEEM LIKE WE'RE MAKING SACRIFICES. BUT AS LONG AS WE'RE FOLLOWING/LISTENING TO THE DEEPEST SOURCE OF OUR OWN GRAVITY, HOW CAN WE GO WRONG? REALLY? WHEN YOU FOLLOW YOUR OWN GRAVITY, YOU ALSO FIND LEVITY. GROUNDED IN WHAT YOU'VE DETERMINED THROUGH A LOT OF THOUGHT AND REFLECTION/ TRIAL AND ERROR AS WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO YOU, YOU GET TO ALSO BE FREE. YOU GET TO HAVE LIGHTNESS. THE FREEDOM COMES FROM DOING THE HARD WORK OF DOING WHAT YOU NEEDED TO DO. THIS I BELIEVE VERY STRONGLY. IT'S REALLY NICE TO SAY YOU BELIEVE SOMETHING VERY STRONGLY. I BELIEVE IT'S GOOD BARACK WAS ELECTED. SO MUCH BETTER THAN THE ALTERNATIVE, AND BEYOND THAT, DUDE, BARACK OBAMA IS OUR PRESIDENT. HE IS LIKE ONE OF AMERICA'S BEST DUDES, AND HE'S RATHER CUTE, AND AFRICAN-AMERICAN, AND HE HAS A GREAT FAMILY, AND HE'S OUR PRESIDENT? WHAT ISN'T THIS WORLD COMING TO?

THERE IS GOODNESS IN THIS WORLD. I AM GIVING A HEATHER MINI-LECTURE RIGHT NOW, AND IF YOU ARE LISTENING, YOU DESERVE A PULTIZER. I'M JUST KIDDING, I NEITHER GIVE THOSE OUT NOR EXPECT TO RECEIVE ONE, BUT THIS COMMUNICATION IS GRATIFYING FOR ME, AND IF IT GRATIFIES ANY PART OF YOU, HOW LUCKY DID WE JUST GET??? :)

I HAVE BEEN HAVING SO MANY PARTS OF ME GRATIFIED, REALLY ALL OF ME GRATIFIED IF WE WANT TO GET DOWN TO IT. AND THERE IS STILL SILLINESS IN THIS WORLD TO LAUGH AT, TOO. FOR EXAMPLE, WHEN I CALLED MY DAD TO CONGRATULATE HIM AND THE REPUBLICAN PARTY FOR COMING IN SECOND PLACE, HE SAID "YOU KNOW, I WAS THINKING BACK TO MY COUNTER-INTELLIGENCE DAYS, AND IT IS VERY HARD TO GET A TOP SECRET CLEARANCE, AND I DON'T THINK BARACK OBAMA COULD HAVE GOTTEN A TOP SECRET CLEARANCE." THEN I PROCEEDED TO ASK HIM WHY. I DIDN'T JUMP DOWN HIS THROAT AT ALL ABOUT FOX NEWS, AND I PERCEIVE THIS AS GROWTH. MY FATHER AND I HAVE HAD GROWTH IN OUR RELATIONSHIP, AND THIS IS GOOD. HE WENT ON TO SAY "WELL, YOU KNOW, HE KNOWS TERRORISTS." I DIDN'T KNOW THIS BIT OF NEWS, BUT ME AND THE MEDIA ARE REALLY OUT OF TOUCH THESE DAYS, I ADMIT IT. I CAN BARELY BRING MYSELF TO READ THE STUFF ABOUT THE 15TH CENTURY LET ALONE THE 21ST, BUT I'LL GET TO THAT SOON, I BELIEVE. ANYWAYS, HE WAS SAYING THAT BARACK OBAMA HAS "ASSOCIATED" WITH TERRORISTS. I WANTED TO GET INTO THE BUSH FAMILY AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP WITH CERTAIN SAUDIS, AND I DID MENTION IT, BUT I THINK MY DAD WAS SO, WELL, FOX-INFORMED THAT I THINK WHAT'S THE POINT? I MEAN, WHEN I WAS UPSET THAT THE REPUBLICANS WON, HE DIDN'T REALLY RUB IT MY FACE, SO I WON'T EITHER. BARACK IS PREZ. MAYBE ONLY FOR THE NEXT 4-8 YEARS. WHO CAN PREDICT A GOOD THING LET ALONE A BAD THING, BUT HEY, IT'S TRUE. OVER HALF THE COUNTRY DID THIS. I AM STILL IN A HAPPY PLACE OF SHOCK AND ALMOST DISBELIEF, BUT IT HAPPENED. SARAH PALIN DID NOT PREVAIL EVEN THOUGH PEOPLE LIKE MY DAD WOULD LIKE TO ELEVATE THAT CUTE FACE ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP FOR THE GOOD IT WOULD DO... WHO KNEW?

SO, WHAT WILL WE DO NOW THAT WE DON'T HAVE BUSH TO COMPLAIN ABOUT? WELL, I PERSONALLY THINK HE DOESN'T REALLY EXIST. I THINK HE IS A PHANTOM, AND I HOPE HE PLAYS A LOT OF WHAT, BASEBALL? I HOPE HE HITS HOME RUNS OR AT LEAST WATCHES THEM EVERY DAY FOREVER.

AS FOR ME, IT'S THE SIMPLE THINGS. MAYBE LIKE W. THE POPCORN WAS REALLY GOOD. I FINISHED A FINE DRAFT OF AN ESSAY. I'VE MADE IT THROUGH THIS WEEK STRONGER, I THINK. SUSAN MILLER PREDICTS A GOOD MONTH? WHAT MORE CAN A GIRL ASK FOR? I'VE HAD SOME INCREDIBLE LOVE, HOPE TO HAVE SOME MORE. YOU KNOW MY BANK ACCOUNT COULD BE GREEDIER, BUT I BELIEVE MY LIFE TO BE RATHER GREAT. THERE IS SO MUCH SWEETNESS, EVEN WHEN THINGS ARE HARDER THAN EVER. ARE THEY REALLY EVER HARDER THAN EVER? WELL, MAYBE FOR A LITTLE BIT. BUT WE MADE IT THROUGH 8 YEARS OF THE DUMBEST PRESIDENT IN HISTORY. GRANTED, WE PROBABLY ALL FELT A LOT SMARTER THAN WE WOULD HAVE OTHERWISE BECAUSE OF IT. BUT, WE WAITED IT OUT, AND LOOK WHAT HAPPENED, WE GOT A LEADER.

I THINK GOOD THINGS HAPPEN. I AM GRATEFUL FOR WHERE I'VE BEEN AND WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING. ALL OF IT. THANKS TO ALL OF YOU (ANY OTHER PERSON OR OTTER READING THIS) WHO HAVE SHARED ANY MOMENTS OF IT. YOU HAVE MADE IT ALL MORE THAN WORTH IT.