the art of letting go

close your eyes
and have someone read this
to you...

you are getting very, very
sleepy
9, 8, you are going deeper
7, 6, you are into the deepest
recesses of your unconscious
mind, 5, 4, these suggestions
reach you and sink into your core
3, 2, you are letting go of all
the pain, 1,
you let go of all fear...

you are in the present moment
the past is behind you
there is no more worry about
the past or the future
you are settled in your own
mind, in your own being
in the river of your
own existence
and you make it your best...
you give in to the flow of your
own current...

i wish i could steal the hyp-yoga
trademarked script that is so
much better, and so much more healing
but
it is against the law

eating kung pao tofu in my
blue honda civic
i am free to sit in a parking lot
in my car
and am freer
than i was at 16.
i remember that freedom
and today it is more...

i am eating emerald sesame kale
as i turn a corner in my car
and the guy behind me honks
because i'm going too slow
and i take it as no commentary
on myself or him
just this moment
and what he did, and this
is what i'm doing...

i rented rivers and tides
after a session with pete
relating about the flow of our
river, the surrender to our current
not getting stuck in crags
not holding on to dead branches
but going with the flow of our
own current

when i came out of lincoln high
with my phone, the kids i had
entrusted my dog to had become
modeling agents, and new
kids were practicing taking
pictures of my husky talent..

she licked the camera,
wanted to scratch it,
that sexy vixen dog...

when i came home, she was waiting
in the window,
greeted me
at the door,
just wanted to go outside
like my date after a long day's work
i took her out when the words begged
to be typed instead,
and this isn't as good as it might
have been, but my dog got to run
for a block before i took her home.

we are working on forgiveness
we must love ourselves before
we can love anyone
we must forgive ourselves
because we are really capable
of forgiveness
we must clear our minds
to be free to be who we are...

in your head, in the street, in your car.