liz's wisdom

yoga was dripping with liz wisdom today, and the stories of my own mind that i need to tell right now.

first, we were practicing balancing. practicing being balanced is very challenging for me right now. we went to the wall. we had to learn that we can touch the wall for balance. we can know that it's there (available in the form it can provide)... but, we have to learn to be balanced on our own. we can know the wall is there, maybe touch it, but ultimately, we need to be balanced bodies, able to place our bodies where we need to be as we're able to get there, as our journey takes us. we can't be mad at our bodies for where they are. we just have to have positive thoughts, imagine the future we want, and create it. take our bodies there.

the body regenerates every 5 years. we get a whole new body. the thoughts we give our cells shape that body. we could run a marathon at 88, if we give our body those messages, if we practice. exercise makes our cells feel good, gives us positive energy.

it reminds me of a friend of mine who is a rabbit. he likes to dart from place to place without making conflict. he happens to live with a monkey. she likes to chatter and chatter. sometimes he wants to dart, but feels like he can't. lucky me, a horse, the rabbit likes my company. horses are supposed to be attractive and popular to the opposite sex, you know, but i prefer this rabbit... i hear someone saying "it's an addiction, for sure," outside of this five willows office, and i hear that. i guess we get addicted to the good feelings. but sometimes, we have to be balanced on our own, or get our bodies there somehow, while only touching the wall. even without.

i thought of a time when i was hanging with z and her friend jc. z was really in an acting place. but the way she was acting that night made me uncomfortable. it wasn't meeting my needs. i love z, and i like to take in a good performance, and be appreciative, but that night, i was getting really annoyed. i didn't feel like i wanted to be an audience anymore, but i also didn't know how to leave. i didn't know how to participate, and i didn't know how to leave. when i finally left, my exit made her upset. i love z. i didn't want to make her upset. she was mad at me for awhile, and i had to learn to deal with it. talk to other people. that has happened with c a lot, too. pisces are sensitive and can make you feel like you need to be uber-sensitive.

but, clint and bones kind of gave me a wake-up call. i felt bad for hurting z. they said i shouldn't. they said if i was annoyed, i should leave. i didn't understand. why should i hurt z? because you don't want to be there. sometimes in z's life she has an audience. other times she just takes care of herself. she likes it that way.

amy was pointing out that my ex is a "stand-up" guy. that night i had to be a stand-up girl. i had to stand-up, because i didn't want to be there, even though it would hurt z. the thing is, if we don't stand up when we need to leave, we'll never feel balanced. then we really can't give much of our heart and mind to anyone, including ourselves, and that's no good. we'll be stuck in our heads, an audience to a show we don't want to watch anymore.

every good tv watcher knows to change the channel. there will always be another viewer somewhere.

liz also talked about embracing what we attract. we've attracted it because we were looking for it. two people walk around looking for the same thing, and eventually they find each other. then you figure out what to do with the people who have come into your path, this new soul who wasn't here yesterday but is here now. wow. what kind of excitement does this bring? do i want to stay on this path?

the rabbit likes to dart. the monkey likes to chatter and stay busy. the horse likes to talk and be admired. somehow we learn to deal with our natures.

the taurus is stable and hates to change. the pisces is sensitive and artistic.

we're given our nature. we're given this life. we go, go, and go, and then we're gone.

ps. i invite anyone in lincoln to go to five willows. it is open to all. helpful and good for all.