blog

blog,
i am sad. i don't think anyone reads this anymore (as i don't write this anymore), but that's not why i'm sad. i'm sad because i try to do all the right things, and i don't know where it leads me.

i'm reading the book the hero within because my therapist recommended it. i wrote the first 5 pages of a novel tonight for class. i tried to capture what i'm going through. i guess in many ways it's the feelings of not feeling in control of your life, of facing the unexpected, in its good and its very bad and scary.

i don't know what's going to happen, blog. i only hope i can find enough mellow music and chex cereal to get me through it. and that eventually, i'll come to an unstuck place where i want to go on a walk outside. if i can get to that place, i know i'll exactly where i'll go. for today.