why i write

Writing makes me feel psychologically safe when living in the world does not. It helps me to find insights, to heal me, make me whole, and helps me share my insights with others to help them become wholer so that I can better trust and connect with them. Maybe I don’t trust myself until I can do what I aim to do, which is to be a writer. I will feel like a real writer when I have a book. I will feel safe when I have a job that will lead me to continue to write. I need as much freedom to write as possible, and I really need it now. It’s how I know how to best be in the world, where I sometimes feel too little connection, or when I find it, it doesn't last long enough because every else has a job/hobbies/interests/what they make from life. I like to see how other people have used language to create beautiful worlds, order, and understanding. But after awhile, I'm ready for people to read what I write.